poetry

almost convinced of his freedom

But in the importance and noise of to-morrow
When the brokers are roaring like beasts on the floor of the Bourse,
And the poor have the sufferings to which they are fairly accustomed,
And each in the cell of himself is almost convinced of his freedom,
A few thousand will think of this day
As one thinks of a day when one did something slightly unusual.

Can’t reread this enough. There is a nice long Slate Auden: Discussed conversation from 2007 that I just found a few days ago. It’s great.

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self-blogerential

stalling, stalling, over the ocean blue

I just super-speed-reread the entire blog. From now through July 24th, 2007. I have often thought in the last month that I ought to dismantle it, in the sulky spirit of “This blog has not brought me happiness. Why should I continue to work on it?” but now I am certain I must not do that. There were so many things in it I would never have remembered, and was happy to be reminded of. I’m so crazy, all for the love of you, where you = theater.

This ought to be enough stalling to be able to work now.

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chicago, location, ovhd, poetry, writing

Speaking of roses

After a long dry heartless and unfathomable spell of silence I thought of another line of a poem last night – I thought that the stars were scars on the sky’s face. Although this is a personification, it does not bother me, because it is a comparison both in rhyme and in content.

It’s probably not good for anything. When you take time off and have to start up again you always think of such bland stuff. Stars, roses, the moon – too much poetry about all of them. Blah.

Speaking of roses, I was in Letizia’s on Division last week, which may as well be last year for how different it is from this week, and a man was handing out pink roses from his garden to all the girls in the muffin line. Chicago springtime – exuberant. Excessive. My friend from the yoga studio calls it “overcompensating,” and she makes it sound like she’s talking about a short man with a big car.

I took a rose, and the man behind me struck up a conversation about roses, and he couldn’t remember the Shakespeare line he wanted to remember, which I was able to supply to him, having assisted on ROMEO AND JULIET.

“A rose by any other name would smell as sweet,” I said.

He looked at me like I had memorized the OED. I have never impressed anyone so much with so little.

Sometimes I think that if I could only remember everything everyone has said to me, all the conversations with strangers – like the guitar player in the Seattle train station, like the Coors employee in Colorado, the woman in the bathroom in the basement of the downtown Chicago library – I would have enough material to write for the rest of my life.

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poetry

What could have made her peaceful

It’s not Friday but here’s a poem anyway. Maybe it’s Friday somewhere in another world.

NO SECOND TROY

Why should I blame her that she filled my days
With misery, or that she would of late
Have taught to ignorant men most violent ways,
Or hurled the little streets upon the great.
Had they but courage equal to desire?
What could have made her peaceful with a mind
That nobleness made simple as a fire,
With beauty like a tightened bow, a kind
That is not natural in an age like this,
Being high and solitary and most stern?
Why, what could she have done, being what she is?
Was there another Troy for her to burn?

– W.B. Yeats

I gravitate between wanting to write small perfect poems, like this, and long messy ones. The things I have written lately have been of a more in-between length. But I have always loved poems that are compact and intense. Like Epitaph on a Tyrant or Western Wind or so much of Larkin or Cope.

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grants & fundraising, ideas, theater

booked to why

I have been taking some time off to rest and end the vicious cycle of endless ear infections, which is my latest excuse for not blogging. This has not prevented me from, today, ensconcing myself at the library to finish another grant proposal for a Chicago theater that I should have been done with days ago.

Here is the list of books my brother recommended in response to my Julian Jaynes quandary.

School A
Metaphors We Live By – Lakoff
Women, Fire and Dangerous Things – Lakoff

School B:
Mental Spaces – Fauconnier
Mappings in Thought and Language – Fauconnier/Turner

Synthesis of A and B:
The Literary Mind – Turner (which was the first one he mentioned)
More than Cool Reason Lakoff/Turner
Where Mathematics Comes From Lakoff/Núñez

I am imagining a Saturday in July, or even August, where I have time to sit down at a library with all of them in a stack.

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