before work, I walked to a coffeeshop, and I had Larry Levis’s book Elegy in my bag.
As I put it in there, leaving the bedroom, I immediately thought of a blog post that ran something like “This morning / reading Elegy at ___name of trendy coffeeshop____, (sentence continues.)”
Arrgh. Documenting your own life loses authenticity in both the documentation and the life if you start altering either for the appearance of the other.
And yet it is not wrong to be always thinking of the documentation. It’s just that it (the constant thought) can lead to a certain forcedness.
I did not take Elegy out of my bag. I’ve just gotten to the point that I don’t like to leave the house without a book of poems stashed somewhere. Having bought Howl in SF, this has become easier. (And that last is true, not something I made up because it would sound good in a blog post.)
To work, to work. More editing.