chicago, theater

just putting it out there

Tonight, I am cooking the severed legs of four different chickens, and the potatoes of the Midwest, in the oven of Humboldt Park. Tomorrow, I don’t know.

Today, I overheard nothing. I have no dialogue to share because my ears were closed to the world. I only spoke to computers. I worked a day shift at my job and a volunteer shift at the theater where I take writing classes – thanking donors, paper-cuttering fliers. I watched actors walk into a rehearsal without walking in after them. It was hard, but not as hard as it would have been earlier this winter, because this time, I had a secret of my own. I’m going to be in a rehearsal some day soon. Tomorrow, I don’t know.

Yes, two weekends from now, I have decided I’m going to have a rehearsal, but not for what. I just know that it’s been long enough. It’s time to start a new project. I’m hoping to get together a small group of actors and just do some text experiments. The thought of this makes me feel, at once, like my own legs have been severed and also like I have grown eight new ones. It’s been so long. I miss it so much, and yet I am still wary about returning. Tomorrow, I don’t know.

It is a sign of the generosity of my performer friends that many of them have agreed to come to this “rehearsal” without knowing what it is we intend to “rehearse.”

I wish I could remember exactly what it was that made me feel like I had the courage to begin again. Springtime, maybe – or riding the Green Line with my actress friend – or C moving up here, at last – or hearing my friends sing at a piano bar – or the persistent pain in my shoulder finally simmering down to a manageable level – or discovering that the man who gave my computer a new brain is a playwright. But I have had all these things for months. I have been surrounded by performers. I have had connections and chances and every opportunity to work in the field I love, and have turned them all down, in favor of a winter of writing and moping and yoga. Tomorrow, I don’t know.

It’s not the first time I have pretended to myself to “give up” theater. But this time, I didn’t know I would come back. At least not to directing.

I don’t know where any of this is going. I don’t have a plan. I just know it’s time to stick one foot back in the pool. Tomorrow, I don’t know.

I look forward to it more than I look forward to sleep. I understand now how it is I have slept so much since moving here. I haven’t had rehearsals.

Maybe we won’t even do choruses. Maybe I’ll try out the French rhyme stuff. Or maybe we’ll do some simultaneous text that’s not choral. I don’t care, really. I just want to get in the room again.

If you were me, you would be happy to think of this. I know I am, and I know that having the strength to come back to it has taken more willpower than an exponent. Tomorrow, I don’t know.

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theater

dialogue from playwriting class

A: Do you have a degree in directing?
B: No, English.
A: How did you ever learn how to do it?
B: (not sure she ever did) I just started, and made a lot of mistakes along the way. You kind of pick it up as you go along.
A: What’s the last thing you directed?
B: (realizing that this is also the first, and only thing, she ever directs) An adaptation of AGAMMEMNON.
A: I can’t imagine how you did that!
B: (me either, babe) You do it if you have to.

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theater

maybe you don’t want to own your own theater

Leaders of nonprofit groups say the economy has only worsened problems in an arts sector that is as overbuilt as the housing sector.

The cherished American belief that ownership guarantees security has been cruelly disproven for many, arts organizations as well as individuals, who bit off more than they could chew.

NYT via AJ

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poetry, theater

a slim volume of poetry

The longer I do theater, the more shocked I am that you can get the play’s punctuation, the story, the casting, even the director right. Still, you have to deal with variables like: Is this the right audience? Do I have the right month of the year, the right city? Is the right reviewer coming? So much of it is chance in terms of how the aesthetic object is received. Sometimes it makes you just want to write a slim volume of poetry.

Sarah Ruhl, interviewed by Paula Vogel

I’ve read this interview many times over the years, but went back to it when I heard recently that her new play, IN THE NEXT ROOM (or the vibrator play) will be on Broadway in the fall.

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theater

heart, exclamation

I spent the day addressing and mailing thank-you letters for a local theater’s annual campaign. I was stunned the first time I saw something like this, but when you give money to a (proper) small theater, they send you a typed acknowledgment of your contribution, signed by several major members of the staff, with a personal note at the bottom. Yes, they care that much. Yes, they need it that badly. When you imagine hundreds of small $20 donations, that’s a lot of little notes for two people to write.

I was amused to see that one of them had resorted to just drawing a heart and putting an exclamation point next to it – I’ll have to do that the next time I’m enthusiastic but running out of penmanship.

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theater

as you already know by now,

the playwright Horton Foote has died. I haven’t wanted to post it, because I haven’t wanted it to be true.

When I directed a scene from COURTSHIP, a few years ago, a small scene between two women built on alternating levels of quietness, I and the two actresses – high school students – earnestly worked away on it for two weeks. We knew it was good, but we didn’t know how good. When they performed it, in almost no light, it was the most real thing I’d ever seen. More real than life. I and the actors and everyone were all so surprised by the way these simple words made something so, I can’t be smarter about this, so REAL.

At eight o’clock in New York tonight, the Broadway marquees will be dimmed for a minute, in his honor.

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criticism, rhyme, theater, translation

traduire

I just had an idea, which I think comes from time spent on Dr. Crazy’s blog.

As I contemplate the return to academia, I was trying to think if there was any topic that I care enough about to spend an entire thesis on it – something which resides within the family of English and comparative studies, relates to both poetry and theater, relates to other languages while still being grounded in English. Something with a relationship to performance without being exclusively about performance. Something more manageable than the history of rhyme in French and English poetry and theater. Something that lets me work on the Greeks without having to learn Greek.

What about some form of translation studies? You could take a given text and do a study of how its various English translations, over time, reflect (or don’t reflect) concurrent trends in poetry, theater, ideas of the time, etc. I guess it’s a kind of reception studies.

Maybe I could do a degree in creative writing somewhere with a 2-part thesis: a scholarly component on translation history of a particular text (ideally a French rhyming drama) and my own version.

I think this would allow me to prove, or disprove some of my favorite chestnuts (if anyone knows why a “chestnut” is called a chestnut in this context, please let me know), things like the ludicrous idea that it’s somehow “easier” to rhyme in French than in English.

I’m kind of into this.

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a propos of nothing, theater

most foul and unnatural

To my extreme annoyance, in the Chicago leg of my tour of Bodily Afflictions of the Kindergarten Period, I’ve somehow managed to develop an ear infection, which prevented me from taking my long-planned trip to Indianapolis for the culminating performance of the second year of the Indy Convergence tomorrow.

The Convergence is a theater conference which I co-founded last year, with friends I met assisting at OSF, and I was going to attend the performance both to congratulate my friends and to pass the baton to their new director of development. Instead, I’m here in Chi-town, oddly sick, and with something that I’ve never heard of anyone over the age of eight contracting. Using the droppers makes me feel like the Ghost in Hamlet. Lying in bed, reeking of acetic acid and liquid steroids (my ears could be baseball players) I keep hearing “The king rises!”

At any rate, if you’re in Indianapolis, please check out their work tomorrow. Feb 28th, 7 pm, Wheeler Arts Community, 1035 Sanders St., downtown Indy. Free and open to the public.

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poetry, theater

perspective

I spend too much time reading, online, the history of various recent absurd public feuds in the poetry community. It makes them seem kind of spoiled, in comparison to what people in theater have to put up with.

How can they be so viciously and publicly angry at each other when they don’t have tech?
They don’t have set budgets?
They don’t have certain words in their poems who can only show up to the revisions on Tuesdays and Fridays and other words who are only available on Wednesdays and Saturdays and other words who just had their car repossessed and really need a ride to the rewrite session?
They don’t have to worry about paying a cast of eight and a staff of twenty a living wage – or, as was more often the case for me, not being able to pay those people anything close to what they were worth, and still asking them to work for you? And to work themselves, sometimes, into illness or injury?
They don’t have to “load in” and “load out” their poems on a three-month poem tour of the Southwestern states?
They don’t have to write enormous grants to subsidize the cost of their poetry production?
They don’t have to resign themselves to full-time careers as “poetry administrators” in order to have influence, financial stability, or any kind of presence in the field?

In short, what are they so angry about when they get to make their art for nothing more than the cost of a piece of paper?

And I have to laugh every time I hear a poet complaining about poetry not having an audience. Folks, if you want to see “not having an audience,” you should try producing 99-seat theater in Los Angeles. Poetry is pinging and poking and pervading itself across the blogosphere and the Netograph and the InterTextene Conferences with the ease of a keystroke and a backslash. Poetry is everywhere. It’s text-based, for heavens’ sakes. You can circulate it with nothing more than the same tools being used to circulate everything. You don’t have to videotape it, get permission from the Words’ Union, get the rights for the music, pay or exploit a videographer, edit it, to put it online. All you have to do is TYPE. And the poem you write in Chicago or Dallas or Hoboken or Eugene can be read, in seconds, by people in Palintown and Bidenville, at the same time.

I am also learning that poetry, having a large national audience in a way that theater doesn’t (i.e., although more people numerically may see a particular play than may read a poem, that smaller audience for the poem has a wider geographic distribution) has a stickier and more public version of snark. Even people who don’t read poetry read the poetry arguments. The text, snipertextual, has a way of hanging around.

I suppose that under all this speculation and comparison is a level of curiosity as to what will happen when I begin making my own mistakes in this field. Theater is a great art form in which to make a lot of big mistakes, because no matter how public they may be at the time, no one remembers them even one month later. Write a bad poem, and publish it, and I think you never get rid of it. That’ll be interesting.

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a propos of nothing, poetry, theater

she came in through the bathroom window

If I keep moving into other fields, I’m going to have to stop calling theater “the field.” I just got off the phone with another poet who entered poetry through the back door (side door, garden hedge, etc). In her case, she came from the world of music. We talked about the fear of leaving behind what you’ve worked so hard on. Unspoken between us, but louder than anything we spoke, was the truth that performance fields are so much more difficult to live in, and that the choice to move towards poetry was, in some part, a choice to move towards sanity.

I met someone at a party two nights ago who said “Wow. Poetry. That’s a hard life.” We’ll see if he’s right.

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